Army Wife and Mom: Why have I allowed myself to get to this point?

I am a mother of three children under five years old, I have been pregnant ten times! When I got pregnant the first time in 2007 I was a whopping 130 lbs! Today I weigh a devastating 185 lbs, I hate my body, and I hate the life I lead in this body. If I keep it up I will surely die from something stupid like diabetes, which runs in my family! So since right before I got pregnant the last time with Xander I have wanted to lose weight, I actually did lose almost 20 lbs right before I got pregnant with him, but of course then I got pregnant and had to be careful what I did due to being high risk. So, Here I am! 185 lbs overweight and on the verge of a mental breakdown because I hate my body so much!

Well.... It is time for a change!

Monday the 9th of June I officially started my 30 day challenge! Working out an hour a day total, thirty minutes being yoga, or strength training and thirty minutes being cardio! I am eating better portions and eating enough, which is a problem for me, because you see I tend to forget to eat because I am so busy with my kids and the house and honestly most of the time watching my television. (sad but true!) So here I go people! I am done! I refuse to be this person anymore. Wanna see what I am leaving behind? I am leaving behind 50 lbs of dead weight that is bringing me down into a pit of misery that I do not want to enter, I will not go and if I do, it will be kicking and screaming!